broken bottle

I can't believe it happened. I tried to stop it, but I couldn't. I finally broke. I have no fight left in me. I thought I could keep this all inside of me, all bottled up. I thought that if I put it in the back of my head it would all just go away in due time. I was wrong. Keeping all of these feelings and emotions in just got too much to handle and here I am. Broken down and defenseless.  I'm in tears. I can't hold them back any longer. Tonight, tonight I will cry. I'm gong to let everything out. Everything that's been pushed deep inside of me. My bottled finally cracked... and its all rushing out at once.

Wow... That's about all I can say right now. Wow. I never thought the day would come that Bryce Barr and  would end up together. But here it is! Bryce and I are officially a couple.  He takes my breath away. He makes my heart skip a beat.... He makes me so happy. For the last four years  have only dreamed of this.  It's finally happening. I have cared for this guy so much over the years. Trying to keep my distance and be respectful of his space . But no matter what.. During those 4 years, I never once stopped thinking about him or caring about him.. Or even loving him. The last 11 days have been the best of my life so far... And the coming days, weeks, months, and years that him and I are going to be spending together will only be better than the moment before.